Castle of Glass

linkin park does it again.

they do this video clip of their song about the war going on the world, which is involve with the US army.

they didn't approach the way people always use. like trying to give the awareness by showing the situation or condition of the Afghanistan's refugees of how they have a traumatic occasion or the effect of the war to them.

instead, they show the effect of the war to the family of the armies themselves by having news of the father who died in the war, they would break any kids heart. i mean like, they were somebody's father, or brother, uncle or even nephew. i mean like, they must have family that will always waiting for them.

the war doesn't show only one side effect. it shows both. i bet like, maybe not all Americans are fans of Muslims or even can accept Muslims in their society, but i can bet not all people can accept war.

so, linkin park show the effect on US army's family effect.

i think they did it with the song of "from the inside", and mike shinoda did the scene of war-effect-on-us army's family in the song of "where'd you go". just i think this is like on-going on awareness of how war bad to the world. i guess, that's the least they can do in a way to stop it, or even to send the message.

the song is really good. good job.

they make use the song for medal of honor's official song, so.. i would like to play the game. :P

Stress gile

minggu ni... sangat2 stress. ari isnin je de 2 test, di ikuti test pada pagi selasa. aku rase cam nak menjerit je. da la projek aku tergendala dan aku cam risau gile kalo2 aku x leh nak teruskan projek aku. or paling teruk aku kene tuka tajuk. 

aku da abes kan masa dan wang ringgit yang sangat banyak kat projek aku sekarang ni. aku x mampu lagi untuk tuka tajuk. dan duit ptptn aku da abes sekarang. kengkadang aku cam nak give up ngan projek aku sekarang ni sebab tak menunjukkan apa2 progresif pon.

tu...satu hal. satu hal lagi study aku. smlm test spectro dan aku blank dan aku rasa aku merapu banyak dalam test tu. aku cam rasa marah gile kat diri aku sebab aku tak leh perform. ni baru test pertama. test bukan makin senang, makin susah de la. aku tak nak cakap perkataan tu... dan aku arap2 sangat aku tak kene ngan perkataan tu. 

tolonglah sem ni...aku nak lepas sume. amin...

Shaky

so today is saturday finally. finally i can breathe. since last week, my schedule is full with my university's program and my project program. one of my friend is going to practical next semester and she get practical at the petronas. she was soo happy and she still did. well, im happy for her. just wondering will i ever get a place for practical?

my life is to be honest is okay. just busy with my final year project. my personal life.. i don't know. maybe it's a bit shaky because we both busy with our own stuff and don't have time to talk with each other.
i;m a bit sad because he is the only person i talk about everything but i don't anyone to talk with now. it makes me feel to just go back to JB.

being in the final year, and desperately need to improve my pointer with having a perfectionist supervisor and a high expectation from my family, sometimes i just want to sit in the corner and cry. i can't do all of those things. i'm not perfect. never been perfect since i was a child.

my boyfriend keeps constantly support me to do the all those thing, just do the best i can do. no need to be as perfect as people want me to. yeah, he's sweet. but i'm not sure how long we can get together. i mean like we've been together for 3 years but he still feels that he's too young to think about marriage, whereas me... most of my friends is married already. so, i feel bad about it. all of them asked me when im going to marry. i don't have the answer. i'm not ready either. i;ve too many flaws to be someone's life accompany. just the environment is being pushy and i want to get out of this environment.

the funny thing is, people always said that i look happy. i always wanted to laugh with that statement. gosh, what will they think if they know what i always feel?