It's almost a month I've washed my hand. It's kinda a big achievement for me and I totally proud with myself. I hope I can stay like this till I meet my husband.
But I hv to admit, there's no days that passed that I haven't think about it. But somehow there's something that always stop me from doing it. Mostly it's because I simply don't wanna do it.
It's kinda hard to explain but I guess it's simply because I believe in my religion. I believe Allah is the only god in this entire universe and prophet Muhammad is His messenger.
Maybe it's because I've been taught to believe since I was young but if it does, well everybody should believe in God too right? Some poeple loose their faith since teenage or adult. They tend to choose their own ways of life, but I don't. I did, but somehow I meet Him.
Maybe it's because I believe everything happen for reasons. Some reasons are logical but others are not. Sometimes we need to go deeper to find ourselves. And we must try to find Him before find ourselves. we want something, we must try to get it. It won't come just like that to you. And definitely it's not an easy job. Sometimes people who are already born as muslim can't manage to find themselves. Mostly they lose in the battle within themselves.
Some people ask me which religion he should choose. Which one is the real ones and which one is the fake ones. And why we need religion. I didn't know the answer. But I just figure it out, if you wanna know, you better try to learn every religion exist in the world. If you find one, just go ahead and join them.
why we need religion? For me it's a way to show to Him we are grateful to Him and we need to do smthing to show that grateful and respect since He is the creator. If you can show your respect to yout parent by visiting them or call them why can't you call your God since He is your creator? And it's also a way to ask for help when we really need one. He is the place to ask for forgiveness, and guidance through these life's maze. Maybe we can get through without Him, but I always feel He helped me alot to get through every obstacles that I had.
I'm not trying to preach here but that's what I feel. At least for now. But I really hope this feeling will stay for long time. Insya-Allah.
