Astrid - Tentang Rasa

Aku tersesat
Menuju hatimu
Beri aku jalan yang indah
Ijinkan ku lepas penatku
tuk sejenak lelap di bahumu

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Tentang cinta yang datang perlahan
Membuatku takut kehilangan
Ku titipkan cahaya terang
Tak padam di dera goda dan masa

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

* p/s: lagu ni utk dia. kalo die baca lirik lagu ni, arap die faham.

Tekanan

aku perasan, kebelakangan ni aku tido cam x lena. banyak mimpi yang tak betol or x masuk akal. even kengkadang dalam mimpi aku, aku menangis. rse nye, x cukup menangis kat dalam dunia realiti kot.

aku x tau la...sebab diri aku, atau pe...tapi aku rse aku cam da jatuh ke jauh2 nye, dan sedalam2 nya. aku rase cam betol2 x de semangat dan kekuatan nak bangun balek.

harapan parents aku, harapan supervisor aku, kawan2 aku, orang yg x bape syg kan aku, sume nye cam jadi beban dalam diri aku. aku perasan perubahan rupa aku kat dalam cermin. bawah mata aku makin itam. bukan di sebab nak eye-liner, tapi mungkin sbb masalah dalaman.

selain dari tu, cam2 lagi aku alami. cam tubuh aku pon start da nak give up. hanya minda aku je...maseh push aku. kalo minda aku da x larat, mungkin satu hari, aku tak bernyawa lagi.

Confussion

it's hard to describe how i feel right now. the "burden" and "expectation" people around me, makes me feel a bit depress. and whatever happen to my family, it affected the way i like about this "path".

i started to wonder whether i'm doing a right thing, to make things right, because even when i try hard enough to set things right, if the evidence is "fabricated", and the "suspect" indeed was frame, and he's going to jail, am i still on the right side?

i'm not accusing we're being "frame", and "in denial" about "everything" but "everything" seems "blurry". and the perspective of the community and the impact on my family, i feel like i don't want to go home. and i don't know whether i want to proceed this path as "people" will know the "flaws" that i "had".

i don't know whether i can do this anymore. even in the class, i kept on thinking about "it", how i start to hate this "path" and doubt whether i need to be in here, or get the hell out from here.

John Frusciante - Here, Air --NEW SONG!

To RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS's fans, and especially JOHN FRUSCIANTE's fan, john has come out with new single. t's available for free in john's myspace. Here is the gorgeous beautiful fantastic song. enjoy it. =)

The lyrics:

Here, Air-John Frusciante


How can I be who I could've been?
I'd like to start over again.
Angels, did I fail you with my fall?
What are we but the cause of it all?

It's been a long time
Of getting out of myself.
Now that I'm here I find
That what keeps alive.

Is all you are
It's all you have
Hey ya
Hey ya

How can I get just one more chance?
I see you in pain and I wish I had
The ability to be your man.
They once told me that time would come to pass.

Now I know to be careful
What I don't believe.
Cause that fate came so close
But right out of my reach.
What's good for you
Is good for me too.
Do you hear, I'm here for you now
I'm here for you now

Methamphetamie, a.k.a SYABU.

for malays, ini dokumentari tentang dadah bernama syabu. methamphetamine nama mat saleh. de gak org panggil die ice. so.. pd remaja yg datang site aku, n tgk video ni..n kenal sesapa yang amik syabu, tolong lah mereka. sebelom segala2 nya terlambat.

i don't think should explain about these interesting drug. it's all in that video. but, if you still want to get some high from meth, i don't know what else i should say to you.

i don't hate druggies, but i pity them. they make wrong choices, not because of their fault. but it's a human natural curiosity to try something new, and better. but, the higher you get, the harder you fall back.

so, my question to you, does it really worth for you?

Bau- Warkah

   C   G   Am Em
e|---|---|---|---|
B|-1-|-3-|-1-|-1-|
G|-0-|-0-|-2-|-0-|
D|-2-|-0-|-2-|-2-|
A|-3-|-2-|---|-2-|
E|---|-3-|---|-0-|

Intro:

   C         G          Am           Em        ring
e|--------------------------------------------0--|
B|-1--1-3--1-0--0-3---0-1---1-3---1--0----0-3---3|
G|------------------0----------------------------| X 2
D|---2----2----0----------2----0--------2--------|
A|-3--------------------0------------2-----------|
E|-----------3-----------------------------------|

verse:

C                   G
Takkan lagi aku menunggu
    Am             Em
Kau hadir di dalam mimpi-mimpiku
C                     G
Puasku mengharapkan dirimu
    Am                   Em
Seperti mereka yang punya cinta


C               G
Diriku tanpa dirimu
    Am                Em
Kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
C                G
Diriku mahu kau tahu
   Am                Em
Pedih ini kau tak terasa

C                      G
Warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
      Am                  Em
Seperti yang aku kenali dulu
C                      G
Setiaku menantikan dirimu
     Am                      Em
Seperti setianya terhadap diriku

C                G
Tapiku melepaskan mu
       Am                Em
Melangkah namun tak berdaya
C                  G
Terusku terus menunggu
      Am                 Em
Cinta yang takkan pernah ada

Dilemma

after the break, i got a lot of stuff to do. with problem in my house, it affected a bit to myself, on how see the world. on how i start to guess myself back. i think a lot about everything; my study, my future and my family. my study and my future, i don't know how i'm gonna end up later. whether be a good guy or bad guy. because of bad thing happen in front of my eyes, i'm  afraid if i will be a bad guy. i began to re-thought about everything. and i'm not sure i'm doing the right thing.

about my family.. i know i used to be not to intimate or close with my parent. but it doesn't mean i don't love them. and when something bad happen, i didn't realize how much it affected me.

i have alot of thing to do, and yet i don't do anything to solve it. i just think. it's not i don't want to solve it, it seems like it's outside of my ability to avoid or stop it.