Wearing Niqab

after the wedding, i was just.. smile all the time. one of my friend, got married and changed herself. i mean like, change change, like change 360 degrees. she used to be like me, a wild crazy young girl who made mistakes all the time.

but, the girl that i met at the wedding wasn't just like that. she got married with devoted muslim and changed herself by wearing niqab. it was a heart melt to see just like that. from someone who likes to wear skinny jeans and tight blouse to wear niqab is not an easy thing to do.

you need to understand especially for non-muslim, there are few rules to wear that. it's not just wear full dress without expose your skin, except hand-palm and face part, which in Islam is called aurat. wearing niqab or burqa for me is like completely devote to Islam. the most thing you can't do is that you cannot be proud by wearing it, or else it will cross with the reason of wearing purdah. you must be really humble with it, which follows the requirement in Islam, which always be humble all the time like Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.

not many women in malaysia willing to wear that and i am really proud of her and really happy for her because there is a man who willing to accept her as his wife. suddenly, it got me thinking about myself. i don't know whether is there a good guy willing to accept me. and if he does, i'm not sure if i can change. i'm not sure i can accept to live that way. i don't want to change because of a man. i want to change because me. and if i may, because of Allah. so, the changes will last forever. which i'm not ready for now.

oh, boy... life's really scary right now because everything is blurry.