Friday, July 26, 2013

Tossing dice with the devil

it's the middle month of ramadhan and i'm still drifting away. i don't know i'm doing right now. am i screwing myself because i'm afraid of the future or just want to completely destroy myself.

what's worst, i keep on dreaming about death in the night. it makes me scared to sleep. so, i've been stay up at night for almost a week now.

i don't whether it is a psychological stress due to my relationship or i'm afraid of the result of my exam. it's like i'm tossing dice with the devil, which i know i'm going to hurt myself. i'm going to lose in this game. then i'll drawn in guilty and the depression will come back.

i don't to keep drifting but i don't know what to do.

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