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I wonder who am I
I look upon the street
watch people, watch the sun
and the sky
Trying to figure life out
Trying to figure out who am I
Being sexually abused as a child
and end-up being a whore as my job now

I don't know myself anymore
I hate to do this
But I really love the way it is
And I'm really expert at doing it
almost in every single way of doing it

I hate myself now
I want to be someone else now
I want to change things
I want to get out
I want to grow up
i want to forget it
i want it to slip away
i want a nice night sleep
where i won't dream of screaming
of running
or crying
escape from self-abusive
nothing..
Just me and my new world..
But, can I get it?
Or can i not?

-august '08