Britney, Avril and Amy Lee

when i was little, like in primary school, of course that time was the time where everyone would try to search about themselves, on how they wanted to be and usually they would try to find their idol, or so-call someone who they wanted to be.

when i was primary school, britney spears was on top. i mean like, she was everyone's idol including me. but, since i was always hanged up with boys, her personality didn't fit me.

then i searched again. and when i was secondary school, avril lavigne came out with her new single, "complicated". i didn't like her at that time, but when she came out with song "skater boy", i was like.. she was really cool! i wanted to be like her. (of course because of the influence of red hot chili peppers and linkin park since i was 12 years old). so, i remain to be like a tomboy-ish girl until after SPM. then, avril wasn't really like a tomboy at all because she started dating with whibley. i like whibley because i like sum 41. but..she suddenly became really feminine which was contradict with who she was and i was like... okay.. she was finally became feminine now because she was about to be someone's wifey and i was okay with that. but when she got divorced with whibley, i was like.. wtf??

then i noticed avril become completely girly with her girlie attitude, which almost the same as britney spears so i started hate her. surprisingly, when avril got divorced, i hate her more than i hate her ex-hubby. and to be honest, i still hate her until now. and to be honest, "my happy ending" was her last song i ever love. i don't like her songs after that.

but since the appearance of evanescence i got the idea of tomboy-ish without look like a tomboy at all, by being feminine outside but still being tomboy from the inside. and i keep that i idea until now. i really love amy lee. she is completely beautiful and her voice is alot better than avril.

but one thing for sure, i don't regret of making avril my idol once, instead i feel grateful which without her i won't be like this now. but i really really hope i won't be like a a gurlie bimbo like her. =P

but, if avril change back the way she used to be, i would gladly to accept her back.