The Life of Internship

I've unofficially graduate myself today. Yesterday was my last day of internship so.. Basically I've completed my degree. Just I haven't got my official transcript yet.

I practical at government's sector where I was able to apply most of what I had learnt at degree. But when I think about it, it's not about applying what you have learnt. It's all about to know how is it feels to work and deal with people right in front of our eyes. To deal our boss expectations, our colleagues expectations, our expectation. Sometimes I wanted to lose my temper but I just kept it cool and just kept quiet. Usually I'd write everything here but since I can't, I just kept cool and control myself. That was the challenge for myself.

and other than that, my personal life.
..........
That's all i can write. Idk what happened. But I guess we've reached a crossroad where we shuld make a decision. Since he couldn't, I can't do anything about it too. too bad I still love him. and I know he'd give me anything accept time. so... I need to think whether I can be like this forever or I shud leave. and the worse thing, he doesn't want to let me go.

wow... haha.

Sebulatnya - The Fabulous Cats Reviews

aku terkejut nape lagu ni tak terlalu popular kat corong radio. aku andaikan  mungkin tak ramai yang minat lagu-lagu melayu atau ia di sebabkan pendengar yang tak pandai menilai. kebanyakkan orang malaysia ni, aku rasa mereka suka sesuatu yang klise atau sesuatu yang 'catchy' walaupon sebenarnya kalo baca lirik, lagu tu sangat-sangat membosankan. golongan-golongan ni aku gelarkan golongan yang naif, yang sentiasa menerima sesuatu tanpa usul selidik. mana yang diorang rasa best diorang junjung, dan mana yang kurang best mereka abaikan. padahal yang kurang best tu la kebiasaan adalah sesuatu seni yang sukar di cipta. sebagai contoh lagu ni la, korus dia "aku yang bodoh, aku yang buta". kalo golongan naif ni dengar, mereka terus cakap, eh lagu pe ni cakap diri sendiri bodoh bodoh. diorang terus kondem dan terus tak dengar. naif bukan?

bagi aku ramai orang boleh menyanyi tapi tak ramai yang boleh menjadi seorang artis. untuk menghasilkan satu karya seni yang bagus, memerlukan seorang artis dan bukannya penyanyi. sedihnya, di sebabkan terlalu ramai golongan naif kat malaysia, artis-artis kurang mendapat perhatian dan oleh itu aku tak terkejut kalo mereka cari lubuk lain selain malaysia kerana golongan-golongan naif ni.

aku berani komen pasal bende ni sebab kebanyakkan kawan-kawan aku adalah dari golongan ni. entahlah, mungkin bagi mereka lagu-lagu ni adalah sekadar penghibur dan tak memberi makna dalam hidup mereka. tapi come on la.. senang nye hidup ko, ko dapat satu bende, tak wat kajian dan terus terima. cam ne kalo info yang ko dapat tu rupa-rupanya bende tak betul, tak de rasa malu ke ngan diri sendiri dan suka menerima membabi buta?

entahlah.. tapi aku memang puji fabulous cats sebab leh wat lagu ni. de beberapa artis kat mesia cam diorang, tapi tak perlu untuk sebut nama diorang. korang google la lagu-lagu kegemaran korang, rasa lirik tu mendalam ke tak, muzik die best ke tak, suara penyanyi tu bagus ke tak. kalo stakat petik gitar ulang lirik yang sama, amik pantun jadi kan lirik cam tak de modal nak wat lagu tapi korang cakap bagus, korang lah golongan naif. golongan yang menjunjung penyanyi dan bukannya karya seni.

2 Bulan yang menyeksakan

da nak masuk 3 bulan aku praktikal. cam2 aku lalui dan cam2 input baru aku terima. tak sabar rasa nya nak abes dan kerja. sebab nak duit. huhu..

da lame tak update blog sebab sangat2 bisi sekarang ni. ni aku berkesempatan untuk update sebab tengah cuti awal muharam dan deepavali. selamat menyambut deepavali bagi pembaca yang beragama hindu dan selamat menyambut tahun baru bagi pembaca beragama islam. mudah-mudahan di tahun baru ini, dipermudahkan segal urusan dan segala keinginan serta kemahuan dapat dicapai.

tak banyak yang leh di ceritakan.. personal life? pass.. working life? cam tu je.. member aku? still cam tu. rumah? cam tu gak. tak de banyak bende yang berubah. banyak yang aku rasa sangat2 tak best. so sebab tu aku nak cepat2 abes li ni.

Big achievement

It's almost a month I've washed my hand. It's kinda a big achievement for me and I totally proud with myself. I hope I can stay like this till I meet my husband.

But I hv to admit,  there's no days that passed that I haven't think about it. But somehow there's something that always stop me from doing it. Mostly it's because I simply don't wanna do it.

It's kinda hard to explain but I guess it's simply because I believe in my religion. I believe Allah is the only god in this entire universe and prophet Muhammad is His messenger. 

Maybe it's because I've been taught to believe since I was young but if it does, well everybody should believe in God too right? Some poeple loose their faith since teenage or adult. They tend to choose their own ways of life, but I don't. I did, but somehow I meet Him.

Maybe it's because I believe everything happen for reasons. Some reasons are logical but others are not. Sometimes we need to go deeper to find ourselves. And we must try to find Him before find ourselves. we want something, we must try to get it. It won't come just like that to you. And definitely it's not an easy job. Sometimes people who are already born as muslim can't manage to find themselves. Mostly they lose in the battle within themselves.

Some people ask me which religion he should choose. Which one is the real ones and which one is the fake ones. And why we need religion. I didn't know the answer. But I just figure it out, if you wanna know, you better try to learn every religion exist in the world. If you find one, just go ahead and join them.

why we need religion? For me it's a way to show to Him we are grateful to Him and we need to do smthing to show that grateful and respect since He is the creator. If you can show your respect to yout parent by visiting them or call them why can't you call your God since He is your creator? And it's also a way to ask for help when we really need one. He is the place to ask for forgiveness, and guidance through these life's maze. Maybe we can get through without Him, but I always feel He helped me alot to get through every obstacles that I had.

I'm not trying to preach here but that's what I feel. At least for now. But I really hope this feeling will stay for long time. Insya-Allah.

Berkawan

Aku tak faham dengan sesetengah perempuan ni bile tang berkawan. Aku tak kesah betapa ko sayang, suka dan ambil berat tentang kawan ko. Tapi ko perlu ingat satu benda, serapat mana pon ko ngan kawan baik ko, sentiasa berikan ruang utk dia bernafas. Dalam erti kata lain, berikan ruang untuk die wat pape yang dia nak. Sebab korang sume dah besar dan boleh fikir pe yang baik untuk diri sendiri dan sebaliknya. Dan dah tentu ko mahu wat bende yang lain dari member ko. Tu lah nama nya identiti atau trademark diri sendiri.

Kebanyakkan perempuan-perempuan line cam ni akan de banyak kawan tapi sentiasa bertukar2, sebab dia akan berkawan ngan ramai orang dan menjadi terlalu rapat dengan sesetengah orang sampai di satu masa diorang akan bergaduh dan berpisah. Better untuk berkawan rapat demgan beberapa orang tapi beri ruang dan ikatan tu jadi lebih panjang dan bertahan lebih lama.

The internship

I've start my internship since 3 weeks ago. The raya was really hectic and still it was really really fun. I think it was the most fun raya I have ever had.

Ok, get back to the internship back. First thing's first. It. Is. Really. Hard.

I don't think the internship is hard but the life is. I fairly happy with the internship but other parts like my house, friends, money and of course my bf.

My house; is fine. But there's no furniture other than sofa and a dinner table and fridge. N that's all. I really can't live like this.

My friends, my fear about the curiousity of my friends has already happened. They start to ask alots of questions. Someone like me, can't live with people who are busybody. I mean like, come on. We are 24 y/o. Better to stay our own business. I never ask anything personal to them, why they have to?

The money; I don't get the loan this semester and I need to be really careful with my money. I feel like i want to cry every single day because if this.

And my bf; same old story. He's bz. U can figure it out already if u read my previous thread about him.

It's just 3 weeks but I can't wait this to be over. Ughhh...

Too Phat ft Yasin-Alhamdulillah with lyrics (english version ).